The Dreemz of a Dreemer

Funny Story

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 02:33:38 GMT

so, i have to tell this story.

My choir director is a nut, but we all love her.

on wednesday she was gone all day.
yesterday, i see her before school and she comes up to me

her: so, yesterday i saw Sping Awakening. Shhh! Don't Tell anyone!
She then proceeded to tell me how awesome she thought it was and that she thought that Rent was worse and that since i ahd seen Rent i had seen worse things.

Then today, she comes into my 4th period (play production in the classroom next door to hers) to bring us leftover food and then she walks up wo me, holding something and she hands it to me. it's her program from the Ahmason in LA where she saw spring awakening and she takes 2 steps away then turns and says
"But i didn't tell you that you should go see it....."

Dude, even my choir director thinks i should see it! my mother should take a hint from her. haha

Well, today was fun

Sat, 31 May 2008 06:33:25 GMT

but seriously, of all the days to forget to bring a book to school it had to be this one. i finished a math test with plenty of time to spare and i had basically all third period of nothing.....gah

so, tonight was the senior broadway night. it was fun. i had a small 8 bar solo in "i'm gunna wash that man right outta my hair" cuz that was the song enchante did. it was dorky, but fun.

then i went to in-n-out with my sister, her 2 friends and 2 of my guy friends (one of them happens to be the uy my friend is goin to the movies with that she realLy likes) we spent, like, and enxtr hour there just laughing and having fun. twas a good nighT.

other than that my week has been really uneventful.

READ THIS! READ THIS!!!!->->->->->-> if anyone knows where i can find a video of lea and jonathans last night performance tell me! i've been dying to see it!!!!! message me asap!!! please!!!!!

k, i'm done now....sorry to bore you

the book thief who wasn't

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 01:58:49 GMT

i found out who was taking my book....it was my best friend and my guy friend, my sister and another friend of mine. all of them in my math class. they told me today and i turned the color of my shirt (and it's a RED shirt) i don't et embarrassed, but i felt like such an idiot cuz i was freaking out to them and it was them all along. plus, the whole situation really did freak me out. i mean, if someone kept taking your book and putting strange messages in it you would freak out too. and the fact that they were laughing at me the whole of first period after they told me just made it worse. also, about everyone else knew about it but me.....so when i o to enchante and asked my friend if she knew anything adn she said that she did i lost it completely. i just broke down..... we went into a practice room and i just cried and told her everything........god, today kinda sucked cuz of that....

scene change....i now get to be the wife of the guy i like in the first scene....score! not really, but still....it's a step forward

other than that, my tutor comes tonight....FUCK!!!!! having a tutor makes me feel to incapable

"g" key still gone...gurg

the book thief returns the goods

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 03:02:41 GMT

so yesterday, the dasardly book thief stole my book. it was retuned today
the note read:
"your corrections are amusing. you need a dollar to appease me. reach for your wallet and get it now"
so i do. tuckin INSIDE my wallet is a note that reads:
"i look forward to tonight. don't go n facebook. your parents never liked you"

on the way home alice let it slip that whoever is putting theses notes in my book/wallet is working for someone else...thought she wouldn't say who...that frustrated me to no end!

anyways....

so this guy i like....i'm letting myself really like him now. my friend likes him too, and frankly, i'm jealous of her connection with him. she is the lola to his jo hardy, so they kiss a lot and they talk a lot and she told me today that he asked for her number last week. she really likes him too, so i feel bad liking him when she likes him too, but sometimes, feelings are hard to control. i just wish that i had the connection with him that she has with him, cuz i really like him....

oh gosh...i haven't had a crush since hajir and i broke up (OCTOBER! damn, that should go in the records!!!! that's a while for me.)

anyway, ANTM is on tonight and nicolette should be over soon

"he thinks we should get to bed early" "any particular place?"

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 04:19:44 GMT

so, sadly it is tuesday and brittany and i are not in the hot tub, which depresses me. it's Hot-Tubing Tuesday, but no hot tub.

anyway, so this guy i like, i'm entertaining the fact that i like him and i'm letting myself like him. i just wish i could talk to him more, but i never get the chance. i did today, for a split seond at the beginning of the first act....hopefully more chances will open up. if i talked to him more and knew him better than i would be more comfortable with my liking him

dood, how come none of the first altos know their parts!??? we frikkin went to LONDON AND PARIS and sang these songs!!! why didn't they tell me THAN that they didn't know it....erg!! this is so effin frustrating!! oh well, their grades are not my problem. i know my part and that's all that matters.

tesing sucks. it's a waste of time. i would like nothing more than to write FUCK THIS in huge letters on my test and turn it in. ya, that sounds good. thank god it's only this week and not next week as well.

i want to ride horses, right now. i miss it so much!!!!

and, my throat is really swollen. my mom says i'm getting sick. cuz i haven't been sick enough lately!!! i'm pissed, and sore

God doesn't want us to sing today....

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 04:09:52 GMT

seriously, with testing going on this week we have condensed schedule and during Enchante practce there were tons of announcments and things going on on tv cuz of the stupid raffle for the stupid incentives program.....it was funny actually. T-B kept getting us up to sing, then someone would come over the intercom and we'd have to sit down once more....hahah

so, theres this guy, he's my friends ex, and i think i like him, but i don't want to like him, because he's my friends ex and also, my other friend (who is the Lola to his Joe Hardy, so they get to kiss *fumes a little*) likes hims too. so i don't want to like him cuz of those 2 things, but also cuz i don't really know him and i never talk to him so i think it's odd to like someone you never speak too and don't really know.

rehearsing makes me miss these days...

i miss being Katisha and wearing a black wig...i also really miss Candlelight....good thing i still have one year to do it!!! my last year, but still....

Bored on a saturday night

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 04:47:38 GMT

and i have no "g" key on my keyboard so typing is really hard right now

my cat is sitting on my chair, looking fat as usual, she left cuz the dog was bothering her, but she's back

sadly, this is a normal night for me

but all week my mind has been racing....i think i might give up on my dreams of being a broadway actress....i know i don't have what it takes

but all the while, i keep thinking "I don't want to deny myself what could have been. i don't want to be one of those people who wakes up every morning thinking 'Why didn't i just do it? why didn't i follow my dreams?'"

what happens if i get accepted to an arts college next year and it turns out i have an amazing voice hidden somewhere? huh?
ugh

i seriously hate mental tennis!!!

give it up, open a bookshop!
no, go through with it! live your dream!
But opening a bookshop would make you happy as well!
but it's broadway! it's your dream
but it's books! it's your life!
but auditioning is hard and takes time.
but you don't know how to open a bookshop
you get more no's than yes's can you handle that?
you might not make ends meet, you may have to close

GRAGH!!!!!!!WHY THE HELL CAN'T YOUR FUTURE BE EASY!!!!!!!!!

No NYU

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 02:03:59 GMT

So, i didn't get accepted to NYU this summer

i'm really not sure how to feel.

i'm kind of really upset, but i don't feel like showing it.

but it frees me up to do a lot with my summer

but it's dissapointing.

i don't know

BTW:
the "g" key on my computer broke off

so, tomorrow we leave for Europe

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 06:05:41 GMT

Am i excited?

Only a whole FREAKING TON!

i mean, we still have a lot of work to do....but i mean, The Royal Academy of Music? NOTRE FREAKING DAME?!?!?!?!

ya, i'm kinda set for a while

Fanfic Formay Question

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 01:17:39 GMT

i'm really new to this whole livejournal thing and i wanted to write a fanfic, but i don't know how ti get this format
Title: Amsterdam
Author: </a></b></a>mahrie_is
Characters/Pairing: Melchior, Melchior/Wendla references
Rating: PG
Summary: Insanity and escapism.

is there a certain format for it, or do i just type it in? (i just cut copied this....)

BTW: mahrrie_is, that fanfic was beautifully written

so, message or comment and explain to this noOb how this works please!

Seriously upset

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 06:42:28 GMT

my mom told me that we can't go see spring awakening in NYC

It nearly broke my heart

i've bee crying about it for 2 hours now.

i can't stop crying

i never really thought that it effected me this much but now i realize that seeing Lea and Jonathan meant a whole lot to me and having the hope that i was going to see themwas a really nice hope, bu tnow that it's gone i feel kinda empty

i feel stupid crying over this, i really honestly feel stupid but i just can't stop. (i can barely see the keyboard right now through the tears)

anyways, that's all

i'm just extremely upset

and i don't know if i should tell my mom how upset i am cuz i know bringing it up will just piss her off

Why i'm terrified

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 05:38:42 GMT

We leave foe London in 5 1/2 weeks

we are not ready

it's that simple.

no one practices and we have never sounded this bad....ever....

i'm terrified right now.

i really am

Insomnia

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 07:41:43 GMT

it's a bitch

i haven't gone to sleep before 11:45 in almost a month now

no matter how early i get into bed

it seriously sucks!

it's like, oficcially official

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 06:58:45 GMT

i'm obsessed with "Spring Awakening"

Good GOD someone just shoot me now....i'm more worried about those around me than myself

my mom has this thing that she made and of the catagories are "name 3 things you have never done and do them"
i think i'll put down
-Go yo NYC for something other than a school trip (like a family trip....)
-See spring Awakening
-Meet Jonathan Groff and Lea Michelle

this is my last attempt to get to NYC b4 lea and john leave Spring Awakening

long time no write

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 08:55:14 GMT

figured that since i haven't written in a while i should get stuff down

Jonathan Groff is HOTT....nuff said

I'm completely obsessed with Srping Awakening now....it's almost as bed as my Wicked obsession, but i havn't seen Spring Awakening....yet

Still trying to convince mother dearest to go to NYC before may 17th as to see Jonathan Groff and Lea Michelle before they leave

I figured out a backup plan......major in Literature and then open a cute little book shop....hopefully, i won't need this plan, but if i do...it's one i can live with

I really want to start riding again....i'm having horse withdrawls(sp?)

Mom and i cleaned my room and moved it around. it's actually organized for once...we'll see how long THAT lasts...haha

Enchante Leaves for London on 6 weeks....YIPES! we have A LOT of work ahead of us

i HATE my princeton review class....fuck the SAT and any other test the is supposed to be an acronym but doesn't stand for anything (ya, SAT doesn't stand for anything...i'm dead serious)

i'm more stressed this semester than i was last semester, and last semester i had 3 core classes....i have one core class this semester....what does that say to you?

I'm breaking out and it sucks

i think tomorrow i'm gettin shelves for my newly designed room....i'm pretty darn excited

It's late....i'm tired, i'm going to sleep in my newly positioned bed

Love y'all!

Why I miss riding horses

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 06:20:23 GMT

Freedom

it's that simple

even though you are in an arena there is a freedom about it

you are not on the ground.

and then the horse flys over the jump

and you're completely weightless for a moment

And then theres beach riding

now, i've only done it once, but it was amazing!!!!

just letting your horse canter off

with no limit as to how far you are allowed to go

It's pure

MAGIC

i miss it

Princeton Review....FUUUUUUCK!

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 06:30:52 GMT

guess who is being dragged out of bed tomorrow to go to the Princeton Review @ 9:00?

Yeeah.
Me.

Am I pissed?
Ooooh yeah

but my mom got all "COLLEGE IS COMING! YOU NEED TO GET READY!" on my ass, so i pissed for a second then complied.

Do you ever feel like you're ready for your future, and then when it starts to happen you realize that you are soooooooo no?

(if life were a musical, this is where i'd break out into some dramatic song.)

the future is scary when you are standing on the brink of it, it really is.
I mean, i never really thought about college until this year, and it's a completely scary concept

I'm going to stop right now, on account of the fact i am scaring myself.

Next subject:
English class ended today.
MISO SAD!!!!!!!

i seriously loved my english class. Mr. Zanius was AMAZING! he made learning english soooo much fun and so much more interesting.

i seriously think he is certifiably insane, but in a good way.
i went to that class everyday and i didn't leave without a laugh or three.

we remenised today and shared all of the stuff we remembered from the class and i nearly started crying

i'm serious.

Ok, i'm gunna stop before i do.

nighty night

Insomnia

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 08:36:40 GMT

So, here i am. it's 12:31 and i'm up and i'm not tired. it's been this way all week. i've been up until at least 1:00 every night this week now. i thought it might go away after my finals but alas, finals are over and here i am....

insomnia is a frustrating thing. you want to sleep, but can't because you just aren't tired
fro me the whole next day is the worst. i get in this crazy mood and i spazz out all over the place, then crash by third period

i don't get it/ how come all of a sudden i decided to develop it this week, of all weeks? i have no doubt that's why i got a D- on my APUSH final, probably bringing my grade down to a C+ in the class....which seriously pisses me off

DAMN YOU INSOMNIA!!!

Insomnia, like life, is a bitch

Recent Obsessions

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 02:22:11 GMT

So, as many people know, i get really obsessed with things really quickly. it's always a musical

My new obsession is "Spring Awakening"

OH MY GAWD! i'm sorry, words can't even describe how amazing it is! and it's so pongnient! i mean, sure, it's set in the late 1800's, but the message is so real for todays society. Basically, it's 14-year-olds in Germany in 1891 wondering about sex, where babies come from, homosexuality, suicide and stuff that teenager today worry about.

And the music!! Oh gawd the music. it's rock-ish music! i mean, one of the songs names is "Totally Fucked", how much more 2008 (i guess 2006, cuz thats when it opened on broadway, but it's been in progress for over 7 years) can you get! i mean, come on!
"Yeah your fucked all right
and all for spite
you can kiss your sorry ass good-bye!
Totally Fucked
will they mess you up?
Well you know they're gunna try!"

i wanna see it before may 18th because thats the night lea michele and jonothan groff leave

BTW: Jonothan Groff = HOTTIE TO THE MAXX!!!!

Seriously girls, GORGEOUS!